Down 1.5 lbs this week!!!

I have had a decent week - I could have done more, but I am getting there. This is a slow and steady change to my life, and I am doing things slowly. I am being very cautious to not over commit - as I know historically I will just bail and quit everything if I get overwhelmed.

I added the promise of two 30 minute workouts this week. One night I did my Wii fit - Active, and yesterday I took the kids tobogganing. I am going to continue with that promise this week, as I don't feel ready to add more yet.

I also have been rewarding myself with a diet pop only once a day if I drink all my water. I have been drinking TWO huge glasses of water. I bought some Organic lemon juice, and have been zesting up my water with that. It helps a little too not get "bored" of the same old tap water.

I also continue to track my calories online at www.fitday.com

Craving!!

I am craving munchies sooooo badly! I am watching TV and all I can think of is eating something mindlessly while I stare at the TV!

I am drinking my water....everytime I want to eat, I gulp a BIG gulp of water.
I am blogging instead of munching........

Down 1.3 lbs this week!

I had a very challenging week...I got my period, which always spells out POOR SELF CONTROL for me. I just can't resist junk food - and I crave chocolate and salty snacks. I can't stop until I find something to eat! I am working on re-programming my self-talk, this is a slow process!

On Thursday this week I found two gigantic boxes of candy in my front hall closet - from Halloween. I was doing a big closet clean up (which is still not done by the way!!), and found two boxes that hubby had bought for Halloween. Be both had bought candy for Halloween, so we had WAY too much. ANYWAY....you can guess what happened to those boxes...I opened them on Friday and have been munching ever since! I should have thrown them out, but I just couldn't do it. I just couldn't see all that chocolate "go to waste". But really, why not. Who cares??? I am going to have husband take it to work with him. I can't have it here. It sets up too much of a temptation for me.

Oh - and we are going to buy a treadmill and a crosstrainer in the next couple of weeks! I can't wait.

Tonight I change my life

Something life altering happened tonight. I put the kids to bed, and went to the pantry and found a snack to much on. I chose Skittles. I sad down on the couch and started channel flipping. I stopped on "The Biggest Loser". I've never seen this show before, but something told me to stop and watch.

I sat and watched this show...and cried. Cried and cried and cried because I knew. I knew I was watching my past, my present...and my future! My future if I don't make a change.

I am done.
I am done overeating.
I am done turning to food for comfort.
I am done being so lazy.
I am done blaming others for my bad food choices.
I am done coasting through life being the fat friend.
I am done taking my anger out on my loved ones.

I put the Skittles down...and felt so sick to my stomach, that I almost barfed them up. How can I put that junk in my body???

This is for Lareina

Lareina gave me a much needed kick in the pants yesterday - yes, I fallen off the wagon. Hard and fast. We left for Mexico early December and everything I had been working so hard for went right out the window.

Then there was Christmas and New Years - a historical deal breaker for me nutritionally. And here we are January 11th, and I'm still overeating and not exercising.

I've pick up Dr. Phil's Ultimate Weight Solution - and I am reading the book now. It has soooo many theories and ideas that I have never thought before. I really feel like I am connecting with this book and it's "7 keys". I am excited at the prospect of changing my whole attitude towards food and eating. More importantly, this book focuses on "getting real" with why you have problems with being healthy. It also gears towards permanant lifestyle changes, and NOT just going on a DIET. This really appeals to me.

I am still doing a weekly weigh in. I promise to do a weekly blog update too. I need to be accountible to myself for commiting to this.

Thank you Lareina. You have no idea how badly I needed this kick in the bum!!